Sunday, February 5, 2012

To Be or Not To Be...Homesick

It's been a while since I last posted on here.  I've had most of my next post already written for some time now.  I just have to finish it up but I've been putting it off.  I'll probably finish it early this week.  Truth is, last week, I didn't have the motivation to do much of anything.  Upon reflection, I wonder if I was/am feeling homesick.  Many people told me it kicks in around two months after your arrival and this Tuesday will be the two month mark for me.  Aside from work, I really didn't do much throughout the week beside watch a bunch of TV shows and movies I downloaded or read a book on my Kindle.  I realized that I thought more often about what family and friends might be doing back in the United States.  Since I've never experienced homesickness before, are these thoughts, coupled with my lack of motivation, a case of me being homesick?

I've also heard that during the homesick stage, one might become aggravated with his or her new surroundings.  I came to Korea with the understanding that the culture was going to be different in some ways and I've tried not to allow American culture and expectations influence my views of Korea and its people.  Up until today, I think I have succeeded in this.  I should mention that Koreans in general are pushy people.  This has not bothered me once since I arrived.  In Korea, pushing your way through a crowd is not considered impolite, as is the case in America.  Normally, I don't fault Koreans for this.  People are a product of their environment and as such, this is how Koreans are raised.  Today, however, while grocery shopping, I was becoming very annoyed every time someone pushed past me.  I suppose it is my fault for deciding to go to the store on the day it is most crowded but nevertheless, I was still swearing (under my breath of course) at every person who pushed by.    

I tried to find other reasons for my lethargic demeanor and low tolerance level this past week.  The best argument against homesickness is the fact that this was the first full week following a short two-day week.  Even with a job as low-key and low-stress as mine, a full week following a vacation can still be tough.  Even many of my students seemed to be more apathetic and tired than usual.  I wouldn't be surprised if this is all it was and I was over thinking everything.  Some people say I do that from time to time.

Truthfully, I hope this is a case of homesickness.  I know I will get it at some point and the sooner, the better.  If this is all being homesick is, than it is no big deal.  I still went out on Friday night and had a great time.  I went with a bunch of people to an all-you-can-eat meat restaurant and to the bars afterward.  I was out drinking and playing bar games such as darts and beer pong and didn't leave until sometime after 3 in the morning.  If this past week was not a case of homesickness, than I guess I am still waiting and not knowing what to expect.  Either way, I've been here almost two months and not once have I thought that coming here was a mistake.  

4 comments:

  1. Bill, if your homesick I dont blame you ... i am homesick for you :) but I know that your having a great time and that this is an experience of a lifetime! If your wondering what people back home are up to then I will tell you that I just went and had lunch for the first time at the new BWW down the street ... it finally opened!! lol I find myself thinking of you lots though and I hope that your enjoying every minute of your adventure.
    Michelle

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  2. Im sick too. Missed you for Super Bowl. Dont get used to Korea too much, need you back in the US, where the only acceptable pushing is on a football field.
    Dad

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  3. Rest assured that you're in our thoughts as well. Even great adventures can have their challenges. This will pass. But we're still here for you, even across the timezones. BTW, warmest winter in a long time - just saying...

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  4. I agree with everyone else! You are missed a great deal back here at home. I have found myself wanting to call and see if you wanted to come over, or watch a game a lot lately. And for some reason, Kayleigh has been talking a lot about you. We all miss you Billy, and we know that you are having a wonderful time over there.

    ~T~

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